Marco
the thing for me about recovery through SLAA is that I was forced to admit openly my weakness, my loss of control over my sexual addictions & unhealthy relationship addictions. I realise now that this honesty made me more human, made me realise that I became more loved & loveable, and seeing as all my addictive behaviour stemmed originally from an apallingly low self esteem, I eventually became able to stop acting out. I realised that I was unable to stop acting out on my own freewill, and that if I had carried on Im pretty sure I wouldn't be alive today. Three years on I am living a life beyond all my dreams. Still with difficulties, but safer knowing I am not alone. Get to a meeting if you can. Recovery can be incredibly quick. If that is what you really want.
Best of luck
Nero