I am very depressed tonight as I am trying my very best to break through my anorexia but feel that I am losing the battle! I went to a party tonight and a guy made eye contact with me and when I tried to approach him later to have a chat and then connect with him and thus lose the anorexia/ fantasy impulse, he just started to chat to another woman and hardly gave me any attention. I went back inside to dance but felt that women were looking at me cause my dress was a bit short. Anything I do, my head says it's rubbish, I find it soooooo painfully hard to make connections with other people, I keep thinking there must be something wrong with me cause I don't get chatted up even though I am good looking and my friendships are always quite distant and uninvolved/ uneventful. On top of it, I am a single mum and feel it's very hard for me to do all this work...some days, like today I just want to give up, I just feel all alone, I try to talk to people but I don't feel I am getting through to them and as for getting in a relationship, I don't know when that's gonna happen but it doesn't seem to be on the cards just yet. I am gonna go and do a step 10 and see my part in what happened today but I feel desperately sad and alone right now, thanks for reading. God bless!