Hi glad your seeking help. The addiction is progressive and the nature of it is thatwe addicts need more intense hits as time goes on just to get the same amount of pleasure from an experience that would have been easy to get in our earlier addiction.Being an addict is not a crime, not a sin but it is not good for us. It means that wehave to seek recovery to live fulfilling lives. You cannot however do it alone. It is a bit like an alcoholic or drug abuser trying to go "cold turkey". Perhaps you can stopthe acting out behaviours yourself but you cannot stop the thinking that drives those behaviors yourself. We need the support of other addicted people to help us get through the difficult times and issues. I wish you well. Try to get to some meetings and you will find help. There are also loads of sex addiction therapy books that you can find in bookstores or online if you want to read more about addition. You are not alone.