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Toplines
3 October 2009 - 10:03pm — Nno
Toplines. This is my topic of self reflection for the weekend.This follows my realising that my addiction is just as severe, perhasp more so on the anorexic, acting in side as the addicted acting out side. I'm going to try to think up some toplines for me . HELP
- Brush teeth three times a day
- Make those three outreach calls each day
- Don't make outreach calls to only those people I perceive I can help in a co dependent way.
- Get to bed early enough to be fresh the next day
- Go to less meetings (it all in motivation, my sponsor reckons I go to 12 meetings week to avoid feelings- again all in the motivation.)
- Value time so keep calls short enough for me and end them when I'm ready
- Meditate
- Pray
- Eat meals alone that I would eat if there was someone else with me.
There's a started list. the thing is with toplines and me is when I get into the social one's I tend to lose my groundedness. The two times I have completely forgotten to phone my sponsor I have been out doing topline stuff. It's seems to me I get inoxicated ? but how can that be so, anyway I lose my groundedness and I find that very scary.
More thoughts on losing
More thoughts on losing groundedness. I think I alomost get so carried away with the fun of it, especially with the social toplines like going for dinner with a friend, that these then snowball into bigger things than originally planned. I lose that calming "I am able to look after myself with safety inner voice." This weekend I did some topline stuff and did manage to stay grounded by taking time out in the afternoon to reflect and spend time in some prayer and meditation. Now that's a topline within a topline. It is just amazing to me that when I'm out with friends I can now quite happily say to them I'm just taking some time out on my own for a few minutes, I will be back... and not feel any smidgen of worry about it. Joyful in hope; patient in affliction and faithful in prayer.
Thank you for sharing your
Thank you for sharing your top lines they are so important. In many ways as important as bottom lines. Perhaps more so as they are the bridge to normal and healthy living. I have been trying to do my top lines, have done some very successfully regarding looking after the physical me and learning to look after the spiritual me as well. I am avoiding stinking thinking a day at a time. Again thanks so much your share really encouraged me.