I have been in relationship with an escort/courtesan for 5 years now, the relationship has ranged from instant sex, meals out together, walks in the park, spiritual discussions, her being my nutritionist and over alternative therapy 'hook ups' plus sexual acting out via texting, discussion of business partnerships and alot of emotional blackmail by both of us over the period. I did some daycare treatment earlier this year and got very clean of all my behaviours but some 3 weeks later an email message led to a telephone conversation led to various sexual/emotional liasons. Three months later I am back in complete anquish and have to extinguish contact with her. As I write this I realise that I have had similar types of relationships over the last ten years and much longer. I have had some success working the steps in SAA but now realise that beneath my sexual obsession there is a dangerous desire for "love" which makes these types of liason especially painful. A day at a time i intend to suceed this time, it is about my fifth attempt to disengage from this woman.