Hello JustbeingU, I know this is a month later than your note but I wanted to share some hope with you. I am a recovering love and relationship addict and I AM sharing and building a committed relationship. I came into recovery over a year ago from years and years of acting out and also a lifetime of codependency. I am still with the man I was with when I realised how much trouble I was in. Needless to say, he has begun to look at his issues too since I started to heal. I spent several weeks in rehab and have been coming to meetings of one fellowship or another for the last 15 months. My life is 100 times better and my heart is more whole than it has ever been. I wouldn't say I was in a perfect relationship but I am in a loving and growing relationship that allows for being human and mistakes and upsets as well as a lot of warmth and laughter. I remember feeling as if I would never be able to have a healthy relationship and that I would break up from the inside out. I really didn't. As a couple we have a lot of work to do but the thing I realised was that I needed to concentrate on me, on my recovery, on spiritual growth, on not isolating but reaching out DAILY to others and most of all to loving myself and being kind to me. When I started to really get that right, my relationship started to mirror that and starting healing. You have reached out which is the first step and a huge demonstration of the courage you obviously have. Good luck to you, I hope you find a loving meeting and also recovery friends who you can share the crazies with on a daily basis. I can feel in hell until I open my mouth and share. Sometimes, a conversation that starts with trauma and great distress will end in laughter with a friend who has been to my hell and knew the way out. It has given me love in a different way, one I would not swap now for anything. Hope to see you in the light! Rachel