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20 December 2008 - 11:26pm — Craig
Hi, I am once again looking at this site, reading some old literature and trying to make sense of how I feel. There is no doubt in my mind that my beahviour is out of control. I have previously started recovery through SAA and have been to one HOW meeting through SLAA. I know that following a 12 step programme will help me but I guess I am scared. I am writing this after a destructive friday evening of acting out. I have spent all day sleeping due to my actions from the night before and and now feeling low and crap. I have looked on this site and seen a meeting tomorrow in my area which I feel I should go to. Please can anybody else share with me their fear and inability to engage at the beginning.
Hi Craig ... it was good to
Hi Craig ... it was good to read your comment, it took me a long time to fully engage with SLAA I went a few times and then left thinking I could get recovery elsewhere, it was during that period that I lost many things that weredear to me as a result of this illness ,and finally ended up very broken and ready to engage in SLAA and from me that meant the HOW programme in London. This stuff brought me to the gates of insanity, with the help of the Fellowship of Slaa I am now able to live my life with a sense of peace, purpose and happiness, one day of time. Good luck with getting to that meeting, for me in the end it was the only place I had to go!
Thanks Zak, I can really
Thanks Zak, I can really identify with what you say. I guess I need to make that first initial move and regardless of how I feel get to the meeting today. Craig