I am on day 6 of the first 30 questions, I would have never believed that I would actually feel a physical craving, lots of emotions kicking around and wierd dreams, I do know deep down inside that this is the right path and I am relying on God to help me through this... I wrote down a few lines yesterday to help get some of the emotions out, hope you dont mind if I share them with you...

Dark clouds roll by, above my head
When has it been any different?
For so long this has been the way
That it has become the expected.

Lost within a place that sheds no light
A shroud of sickness drapes on me
A place where hope does not live
My illness touches other people.

Am I forever to be lost?
Never to feel love?
Never to be loved?
Blind to the One who will always love me.

The crushing blow of heartbreak
Pain intense that I can taste
Should signal my end
Extinguish my soul

From that place there is a spark
A flash of light far away
It catches my eye, dare I?
Hope?

He is there
He has always been there
Waiting for me to see Him
Waiting for me to ask Him

His love light fills me
Eases my pain
Sends His messengers to guide me
Bringing His love within them

Dare I hope?
To be in the light
The place He wants me to be
Whole, free and with Him.

I do dare.
I do hope.
I do love.
He is in me.

White clouds roll by, above my head
When has it been any different?
For so long this has been the way
That it has become the expected.